The waiting is murder. I am keeping up with things as best I can, but it all slips through. The thoughts I enjoy are unreal, as are my expectations, my hopes and dreams. I think about putting a stop to it all always; every edge another chance to quiet the ache - but the addiction to consequence keeps me keen like a beggar. I have no time for rest as all the features in my life are uncertain.
I keep hearing the promise that always comes, it's the one I repeat to myself before dreams wrestle me to the bed, and the one the keeps me gasping for breath when I choke up. The promise is the one thing I have that makes any sense, it's the only thing I have left to believe in. Someone walked away with my soul. All I can do now is work and wait.
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KattrinaK
08:30 Oct 03 2010
I just wanted to comment that I read your Profile and checked out your Coven. Very well-thought out and rather thoughtful. Your Group seems to be full of amazingly talented, highly artistic, very engaged and highly present people; thanks for sharing and thanks for defining the Left Hand Path...I hear it tossed around quite a bit but have not ever truly been able to pinpoint its finites due to a lack of general information out there, or information that often contradicts itself.
As for your Entry, I don't make claims to know or understand, but I do hope that all is resolved for you in some way or another to stop your unease and pain.
Be well.
PAGAN
10:45 Oct 03 2010
[Well said KK]
Hope keeps us going when life knocks us down. Never give up hoping.
imagesinwords
05:04 Oct 04 2010
Miss you being around, Mr. D. I am always your friend.
GalFriday
22:12 Oct 04 2010
Keep breathing, Monsieur. The winter only lasts so long.
sahahria
15:14 Oct 07 2010
Though silent, some of us are still here waiting...
For what, that is debated. A sign could be false, and our being at a loss... So we wait, trapped between. Yet remaining true.
siouxsieswitchblade
14:07 Oct 21 2010
what were you waiting for?